Being Thankful...

Sometimes it is difficult to see God's plan when you are hurting. Just after Christmas I had a difficult miscarriage. It is amazing to me how as went through this I never felt alone. I knew my Savior was there. My darling sweet husband came home early from work after my appointment with my doctor and brought me flowers and ice-cream. I will never forget the extra time my Matt took to hold me when I needed to cry and how he kept "checking" on our sweet Kale that night. I could see it in his eyes that he too felt this loss and was so grateful for the healthy happy child we still have. I am thankful that the Lord blessed me with the ability to see through my own pain to be aware of how my husband was feeling. While still very sad, I am glad of how the experience has brought my little family closer, and that I know how much my Savior loves us. We were told we would never get pregnant again, so it also helps me to remember that God can defy science when He wills it. When I begin to feel angry or very sad, I read Alma 7:11-12 over and over until I feel better.

“And He shall go forth, suffering pains and afflictions and temptations of every kind; and this that the word might be fulfilled which he will take upon Him the pains and the sicknesses of this people….” “…That His bowels may be filled with mercy, according the flesh, that He may know according to the flesh how to succor his people….”

I love how “pains” is used twice. The Lord did not just come to help us through the pains of our sins, but the pains of the world as well. He knows every tear, every fear, and every beat of every heart. He has felt the pain of this loss I suffer and He is there to hold me and take my pain unto Himself if I will let Him.