Matt has decided to wait until August to return to his schooling. He really needs the break and that allows him to watch Kale while I am gone. In the fall when we are both in school, my niece Stephanie will be watching Kale the 3 nights a week I am at class. I met with my school advisor and I will be finished with my classes in June of next year, and Matt will be finished in May. I believe that the Lord has given me this oppurtunity so that I can develop my talents and still be a mother. I am so gratefull for a husband who is so supportive and always puts me first.
The strangest thing about this blogger thing. I feel so peaceful when I am here, writing. I also have a myspace where many of my family and non-member friends are. It is so interesting that when ever I am on there I am so worried about what they "think" of me. Am I a success to them? In their eyes, probably not. I even had and ex write me on there and say, "Weren't you going to go to New York and be a famous broadway star? Did you chicken out or just settle?"
I didn't even respond. The strangest feeling came over me. Perhaps to them, I am not a success. I didn't travel the world like I said I would. I am not rich, or famous. On the 200 things to do before you die list, I probably have only 5 completed. But, I had an overwhellming sence of peace. "When the world says you are not like us, we say We know we don't want to be." I am so proud of who I am, how I have grown and become stronger.
The class I am taking right now is Phylosophy. On the first day of class we were each asked to "state our phylosophy on life and existance." I was the only person in my class with any concret answers. Most ranged from, "I don't know, I think there is probably a God, to there is no God and life is just random happenings."
I almost cried. I was instantly so grateful. I KNOW why I am here, my purpose, and where this life leads to. I have never felt a more overwhelming love from my Savior. One student asked me after class, "So do you really believe that we were spirits before we came? That God knows and loves us indivitually?" I think I have born my testomony more since that first day of class than I have in the last year. I am so grateful for this opportunity.
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3 comments:
i'm so happy that you are going to get to finish up your degree! congrats! that is so great that matt and your niece will be able to help balance things. families are so wonderful!
I'm so glad that everything is coming together for you! Things sound like they've really fallen into the right place!
I also am so glad that things are going so well. The truly blesses us. I am glad that you have found a safe place where your friends can support and love you, I also love that part of blogging. Good luck juggling everything!
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